Needing motivation

I am overweight. And I am unhappy about it. But it seems like I can't do anything to get myself in shape. I weigh 150 lbs, and I'm not quite 5'2". I know once I get in a routine, I will start to feel better. Hell, my skin may start to clear up. But I can't actually get up off the couch. I've gotta kick this lazy habit.

Growing up

As I tucked the kids into bed tonight, I can't help but think of how much they have grown. They aren't my little babies any more, which makes me sad. But at the same time, I am so proud of all that they have achieved. Even though I still have a few years before Mr T is at the same level, it's still bittersweet. I've done so much growing up since Nadi was born, that it's very different with the baby. I do love all 3 so much, I've just noticed how different I am as the years have passed. My children really do mean the world to me. I just hope that I have passed on all of my best qualities to them, instead of my worst.

More work

Starting tomorrow, I will be picking up another day at my job. I am really excited about it. But there is one problem. Finding someone to watch the kids. With our rent getting raised, we need all the money we can get.

It just pisses me off that family has screwed us yet again.

First night at work!

Tonight is my first official night at work. I am so excited about it! I kinda wanna take a nap before going in, that way I will have plenty of energy

The Big Latch On

Today Thing 3 and I participated in The Big Latch On! We did this to support world breastfeeding week. I didn't use a cover or anything!!

Failure

Kail got angry at me tonight. And I don't blame him for it. I'm spending money that we don't have to spend. I can't help it. We are having such a hard time. I feel like I do nothing but fail at life.

Doctor's appointment

Today I have an appointment to see my ob/gyn. Just a yearly check up and to ask about birth control options. As Kail and I are done having kids, we want to take every precaution that we can. It's also supposed to be pretty damn hot out today. So 3 kids + hot weather + riding the bus = fun times.