Regrets

I feel really awful. I promised Kail something yesterday, and today I forgot about it. I really don't want to hurt him. And now, I don't know what to do. He is such a good man, and I betrayed his trust yet again. If only there was some way to make it up to him, but I know that nothing will work. I guess I will just have to ride this out, like I do everything else.

Changes need to be made

Clearly I have mental issues that still need work. But I will get through this and be stronger for it. I love my husband and my children dearly. They are my motivation for getting up every day. I think that going to this group therapy thing will be very good for me, not only does it get me out of the house, but I also will have interactions with other people.

When it comes down to it, I will always have to work on myself, this will be a never ending task. I will also have to continue to work on my marriage with Kail. We are hitting another rough patch right now, with me not doing so good in the head, as well as what we both personally need.

I know that we will get through this, hell we've been through so much worse. And now that I've hit bottom, there is no place to go but up.

So this is where things are standing at this point. We shall see where these paths will lead us.

Worthless

I am worthless. This is how I really feel about myself. I hate myself down to the very core of my being.